anxiety

I've been having problems with anxiety and depression and the like for as long as I can remember. I would say it's something I've recognised in a specific sense since at least the time I finished year 11 at school, so that would make it nine years now. At times I feel crappy, like I have nothing in my life that is worth anything, and sometimes it reaches the point where I don't really like having to leave the house. I've cancelled plans with friends before, even if it's just a lunchdate. And my man troubles are the stuff of legend at this point, but that's something I'll go into detail with at another time.

My current big issue is work. I started a new job recently, and I already feel as though I can't cope with it. The people are nice but the job has a lot of pressure at times and I just feel like I can't deal with anything stressful. I keep waking up in the night and having panic attacks and nightmares because of it. I'm thinking about going to the doctor's and asking about counselling and/or medication to get some help. I still don't know what I'm going to say to work or how I'm going to figure it out. We'll have to see.

Anyway, I have to go for now, must eat at some point tonight lol.

Peace. xo.